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I was born in Tehran, Iran on August 6, 1969 to Vigen and Nadia Derderian. In 1971, we all immigrated to the United States along with my younger sister.  Both my parents are from Armenian descent and both were brought up as Christians.  Armenian Christians generally fall under the Gregorian denomination. 

 

My fathers' father escaped from Turkey to Iran in order to avoid persecution from the Turks during the Armenian Genocide of 1915.

 

Like many other Armenians at the time, my grandfather experienced and witnessed some of the most horrific and inhumane treatment of his people, perpetrated by the Turks. 

 

Armenian women were raped, mutilated and murdered.  My father would tell me magnificent stories of his father escaping to Iran under the most horrible conditions.

 

One of the saddest stories is of when my grandfather had to drown his own two sisters in a lake in order to save them from the brutality, rape, and torture of oncoming Turks.  He knew that if these men captured his sisters they would suffer greatly and then be murdered.  He rather of had them die on their own terms instead of having them experience a most certain, humiliating and brutal death. 

 

What a horrible thing for someone to have to go through and decide upon.  I couldn't even imagine having to make that choice.

 

Then my grandfather had to stay in a well for days in order to avoid capture or death by the Turks.

 

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When he arrived in Iran he met his wife, who is also Armenian and they had 8 children.  One of which is my father, Vigen Derderian.

 

Indecently, the name Derderian is derived form the word derder that means priest in Armenian.  Most Armenian sir names are derivatives of ones occupation.  So somewhere down the line of my family tree someone was a priest.

 

When World War II broke out my father was about 12 years old and live in Northern Iran, which was mostly populated by Azerbaijanis. By this time his father had passed away with pneumonia and his mother was left to raise 8 children. 

 

Because Iran allied with Germany at the start of the war, The Soviet Union, without incident nor resistance, marched into northern Iran.  

 

Most of the Soviet army invading Iran was comprised or Armenian soldiers. Thats because Armenia, which was just north of Iran, was now a part of the Soviet Empire.

 

It was at this point where my father's destiny became apparent.

 

An Armenian soldier came to my dads house, for a home inspection, and offered to sell him a guitar.  It is important to know that a guitar in Iran is a foreign instrument, hardly recognizable.  My Dad, who loved music, purchases that guitar and basically taught himself how to play it.

 

One day, about 15 years later, my father was playing guitar on a beach singing a song he had written. By chance, someone from Iranian radio passed by and heard him play.  He was then offered to go on the radio station and play his song. He became famous overnight.

 

Because he introduced the guitar to the Iranian people and delivered a more western, European style to his music he became to be know as the King of Pop or Sultan of Jazz.

 

I could go on and on about my dads experiences but I must talk about others including me.

 

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Dad me and my Mom on my 1st B-day

As a child I never was exposed to strict Christian traditions. In fact, religion was never discussed. I knew we were Christians, and I knew about Jesus, but that was it. After all, my dad was like a rock star and my mom had to keep up with my dad.

We never went to church. My dad usually worked on weekends because he was in the entertainment business, so on Sundays there was no one to take us to church. In fact, my parents forgot to baptize my sister and me when we where born. They just did not pay attention to things like that nor value it.

Where I got any religion was at school. It so happened that the closest school to us was a Lutheran School called Laurel Hall in North Hollywood. There we had bible study, chapel, and some pastors as teachers.

I actually got my self baptized and confirmed when I was 13 years old without any coercion nor persistence by my parents. In retrospect, I am impressed with my self; that a 13-year-old boy initiated and completed such an important religious ritual.

It was then, that I always questioned the pastors; Especially about Noahs Ark. They could not give me any rational explanation and the head pastor told me that most of the Old Testament was not literal.  So they are just stories???

 

 

 

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After finishing 9th grade at a private-Lutheran school, I transferred to Grant High School, which is a public school.  This was quite a change for me leaving a school with only 25 kids in the whole 9th grade and then attending a school that had over 3,000, very diverse kids. 

 

In junior high school, every one for the most part, were white Christian kids.   I was probably the most ethnic one in my class.  In public high school I was exposed to a variety of cultures and religions which was a little frightening for a 14 year old that has never known anything different.

 

It took a while for me to adjust.  In fact, most the friends I acquired in high school were Jewish.  I don't think I ever new anybody Jewish until I went to high school.  They all even thought I was Jewish.  That's because in Sherman Oaks, if you see a white kid in a public school, it's a good bet that he's Jewish.

 

After high school I forgot about religion.  I never went to church nor prayed or even thought about religion.  All I was really concerned about was getting drunk and meeting girls.  In college that's what youre exposed to, that's the environment, and those are your memes.

 

I became a product of my environment.  It was the late 80's.  There were no deep discussions about spirituality, philosophy, or religion between my piers.  They'ld think you were gay and you'ld probably get your ass kicked if you got into a discussion of any of those topics.  It was the Guns and Roses, LL cool J era.  You had to be a bad ass and get your enlightenment from a keg of beer and then later, hopefully from between the legs of some cute sophomore.

 

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After college, I opened and ran a succesful wireless phone busines.  I also got married had twins and recently got divorced.-The "American Dream". 
 
I have since closed the business, not because of any failure, it was just time for something different.  In the mean time I am in this class, completing 3 units that are required of me in order to graduate-God willing.
 
However, it is no coincidence that I choose a class on Religion.
 
After the divorce I was sort of lost and upset, which is expected.  I was very confused and also very unhappy.  You can say I was depressed. 
 
On day at my friends house I picked up a book he was reading called The Power of Now.   I was thinking; what gay ass book is my friend reading?  As I read through it, it really captured me.  I taught me ways to think that I never thought of before.  It change my outlook and brought more meaning to my life.   I taught me how to have more control over my thoughts and to alway be present in my life-to be "In the NOW". 
 
I thought, how come no one told me about this shit in church?  Who gives a shit about who had what children and who said what to who in the Bible.  How does that help me now? How does knowing that biblical information help my life?  It doesn't. 
 
Reading The Power of Now got me intersested in other ideas and books.  I then started reading about 10 other books on the subject of spirituality and religion.  I really got caught up in it because it made me fell better if for any other reason.
 
Some books were by the Dali Lama, some about sycronicity, some about the mystical Christ and other books that gave me a fresh perspective on life, God and the Universe.  I even attended Kabbalah classes that I would of never have imagined I would ever do.  My friend thought I lost my mind.  However,  I found it interesting and some of the philosophy of kabbalah has been helpfull to me.  What I liked about it initially is that they said "don't believe anything we tell you-just see if it works for you".  That sounded attractive to me because it allowed for me to be the judge and I am a very sceptical person when it comes to religion.  I'm like, OK., How much money do they want.  I know kabbalah is a business more than anything else. trying to get you to attend their classed and buy their books.  However, I took it for what it was worth and became more proactive then reactive in life.
 
So, I decided to take a class on Religion and here I am; more confused than ever.
 
Thanks a lot Dr. Lane...
 
I'm just kidding. So far I have gotten a lot out of the class and it has directed me to new avenues of thought in this very, very complicated and bafaling subject. 
 
-It seems that once you get to start thinking about it, it's hard to let go of it.
 I can see why you have done so much reasearch on it..